I feel like I haven't written in a while, and there's a reason for that. My best friend and her son are in town! They are here and it makes my days a little more busy and a lot more wonderful.
I have had some great success with weight loss this past week, with a whopping 6.2 lbs. Can you say WHOA? :D Yeah, I freaked when I saw the scale. Which this puts me at only 3.6 lbs until I have reached my first goal of 270 lbs. That makes 19 lbs in a few days over a month. That is ridiculous!
I know it is going to be slowing down and I am prepared for that, but this is a great start, right?
I saw my first friend that hasn't seen me in a while on a day trip yesterday and her reaction was great. Part of me is so happy to see that proud look in this friend's eyes, but I also worry. What if I can't keep this up? What if I can't encourage myself to keep going and make myself work hard and exercise and what if I fail???
I have so many doubts and so many thoughts that I know are keeping me from success. I know that seeing those numbers on the scale drop every week is such a joy but it also brings something up in me to sabotage. I love fitting into my "not the fattest" pants (face it, skinny pants are for skinny people). But, part of me still wonders if I can fit into the "not the second fattest" pants.
I guess this is the long way of me saying I had a burrito or two for dinner tonight instead of soup. :( So, I had a bad day. And I had a road trip yesterday and ate out a bit, so it wasn't the best day either.
BUT,
I have renewed faith in the system. 6 lbs in one week, 5 lbs in another, 4 lbs in the first week--my system must work for something, right?!
So back to the system I go!
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