I have been trying to break my sabotage for years, but it is such a difficult thing to give up. Sounds terrible, right?
When the shooting finally caught up to me, I had the words of the ever-persistent reporters going through my head. They told the world that it was our fault and that we could have done something to stop it. Then, there were nasty people out there who let us know that they think we deserved what we got. Somehow, through all the good that has happened in my life, I still hear those words running through my head every day. Hateful words others have said in anger are reminders of the deeper pain I still feel. I feel as if I deserve the hate and pain. Most days I can push that out of my head and convince myself it is ok to be happy. Other days, I find myself being happy and I can't reconcile my head and my happiness, so I sabotage.
I sound like a serious whack job, I know!
So, when I lose weight and then go eat a giant plate of tacos (total comfort food), it is unconscious sabotage.
It is so bothersome. I am doing pretty good, but I would love to stick completely to my eating plan for an entire week. So, that is my goal for this week. Sunday through Saturday, I am going to follow my eating plan to a "T"! 100% on-target!
So, no sabotage this week, no matter how I feel. I deserve the right to pursue happiness and not feel guilty about it! The best things in my life have come from when I have ignored the negative inner voice and given in to the good. My friends, my husband, my son, etc. I will remember this in order to make it through the week. Focus on the good to get rid of the bad.
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| A good friend of mine shared this and I thought it fit really well. |
Set some goals for yourself this week! Start off small. Maybe go outside and spend time in the spring air every day. Maybe it will be to make it to the gym this week. What will your goal be?
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