It is so easy to see the faults in others and the problems they create for themselves. It is easy to find the faults in others and see how, for instance, being diagnosed with diabetes and on insulin still doesn't inspire someone to eat better or take time to exercise. But, it is harder to admit that I judge others for the faults that I see in myself. I know I am on the brink of diabetes, so it scares me when I see others who have given up and given in.
I never want to stop trying. Even though I have bad days (like today), I also have good days. And, like any addiction, you need to take it one day at a time. Food addiction, which I would say is what happens when I can't seem to stop myself from binge eating. I am afraid of not being able to take control of my life and take responsibility for my actions. What if my eating habits take me to an early grave or make it so I can't have any more children? What if I can't care for my son because I just couldn't stop eating?
So, after the weekend filled with ham, potatoes, chocolate, and self-reflection, I am excited to keep moving forward and get back the health I so desperately crave.
PS-If you have a family member or loved one that you see making poor choices, tell them in a loving way that you are concerned for their health. Take action for yourself and lend help to others. I can't imagine a worse feeling than losing someone to obesity without speaking up and showing them you care.
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