Down on Down

I worked hard this week.  Like, I did the harder training session, ate stricter diet, and tried to move. 
My stomach feels like the inches I lost magically jumped back on, my pants don't fit as well, and I am just all out not feeling it.
Weight loss is hard.  It was depression that got me here in the first place.  During the shooting in high school, I hid under a desk until the police came to clear our room.  I think hiding under a desk or in a tight space ended up giving me some sort of comfort from then on.  I tell my hubbs that I basically "ate everything in sight for three years and then hid under a desk" when I describe that period in my life where I gained the majority of my extra weight, and it is actually pretty accurate.  Once I found out my dorm chair fit in the closet, I went there instead of under the desk, but that was basically it.  I ate away the pain I felt and hid. 
So, when I am doing everything I should according to the "experts" when it comes to losing weight, I feel like the fat should be melting off to reveal a barbie-like figure underneath (don't we all wish?).
The scale this morning said 263.0 lbs.  That means over the course of a week, I lost .6 lbs.  I seriously don't know where I went wrong.  It isn't like I gained weight, so that is good, but I am starting to get discouraged from the back & forth weight loss.  I am not switching things so wildly from one week to the next that I should be losing by so drastically different numbers each week.  So what did I do last week that I didn't do this week?
I can see some people read this blog, and I am glad they do.  I am glad there is someone out there who listens.  I wish I knew what you wanted to hear about though.  Why me? 
Are you trying to lose weight, too?  (It's difficult, I know).
Do you know me and you stumbled upon this blog and so you read it to see what I am thinking (I have only told Hubbs and 2 friends about this blog--so if this is it--please don't tell me--I think I would be too embarrassed)? 
Are you a psychologist looking for some material?  (If so, I have plenty more to tell ya).

Okay, well, have a wonderful Sunday.  Tomorrow is Monday and it is back to the grind and back to the gym.